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| Dont berate me Cuz you cant stop me from breakin your face its you i'll erase it's hate motherfucker |
[Mar. 24th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
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| | slipknot | ] |
~walk around all day with a full buzz~
Getting drunk right now mmmmm i made a somewhat good drink with what i had it's way to fucking sweet though well i have a pretty fucking good spring break went to the beach and had a good old time got whiskey, vodka, beers and my girl smoked up and met some cool people
Went out to dinner a couple nights ago on bars and fucking crunk drank striaght vodka in the cab and drank more at dinner went home and drank more hmmmmm looking back i did a lot of fucking drinking this damn spring back and its not even over yet...
i got my permit finally and in a fucking month i'll be turning 16....i had my permit for maybe a week and drove my car in a big ditch
and i already know i want a big boy truck for i wont be ridding in a coffin.i want a Dodge dakota 4x4 quad cab (4 door) a 2005 would be nice but wont be happening and im gonna have a job in a month
well that it im out |
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| ~Girl it's easy to love me now..Would you love me if I was down and out?~ |
[Dec. 23rd, 2004|05:58 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
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| | tupac- they dont give a fuck about us | ] |
well everything has been going pretty good lately christmas is coming and im still in process of shopping for my friends but they'll understand i gotta ask my mom for some money cuz im running low.
*~*Right now I'm on the edge So don't push me I aim straight for your head So don't push me Fill your ass up with lead so don't push me I got something for your ass, keep thinking I'm pussy*~*
the only thing that sucks is my therpist is gay and doesnt wanna keep me homebound he told me he would if i started cutting my wrists jump off a building or overdosed and i was like thanks asshole you good for nothing piece of shit. i really just wanna go in there with slit wrist just to be like well hey you told me to but they he'll probably throw my ass in david lawence center.
I'm gonna go up to new york and penn. with mikes family 2 days after christmas and coming back jan.3 the excat day robbee will be leaving but i saw him yesterday adn he doing really good.
*~*I'm rolling out on tour today you getting sad because I'm goin away
Chickenheads wanna play with me you getting mad because you think I'ma sway, Some of them cute some of them fine as hell you hear them scream as soon as I hit the stage Still I be getting lonely for you I'm coming home as soon as I make this pay*~* Tupac- thugs get lonely too - new cd
hey tupac is coming backm in 2006 keep you eyes out...his new cd is the best, it takes some getting use to but i still like some of it.
well that about it im out
Gabbie xoxo |
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| "I can't say I love you I dont know what that means...I'ma Pimp" |
[Dec. 1st, 2004|05:15 pm] |
well i going to my drug dealer theropist tommorrow and thats when i'll decide what im doing if i am going to jersey or not im pretty sure im going i just dont know when. Hopefully i'll get something good from my drug dealer.
well mi think my sister and spiro are done with and hopefully that leaves me a bitch to fight becuase my sister is 18 long story behind it but i have a lot of agression in me...and its sucks cuz i live with mike and cant take it out all i have been able to do it go outside and bunch the cement wall becuase i cant put holes in the walls here.
well obe of the reasones im leaving is becuase i def feel like im corrupting the canter family household.
well im out Gabbie oxxo |
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[Nov. 19th, 2004|03:16 pm] |
You are the Marquis Da Sade. Even stripped of
exaggerations, Your real life was as dramatic
and as tragic as a cautionary tale. Born to an
ancient and noble house, you were married
(against your wishes) to a middle-class heiress
for money, caused scandals with prostitutes and
with your sister-in-law, thus enraging your
mother-in-law, who had you imprisoned under a
lettre de cachet for 14 years until the
Revolution freed you. Amphibian, protean,
charming, you became a Revolutionary,
miraculously escaping the guillotine during the
Terror, only to be arrested later for
publishing your erotic novels. You spent your
final 12 years in the insane asylum at
Charenton, where you caused another scandal by
directing plays using inmates and professional
actors. You died there in 1814, virtually in
the arms of your teenage mistress.
You are a revolutionary deviant. I applaud you.
Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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[Nov. 19th, 2004|03:12 pm] |
well i firgured out the whole jersey sitiuation im going to be up there in january sometime and then i'll be doing online schooling not bad right and as of now i am homebound so its all good in the hood G.....but anyways i've been able to striaghten some shit out that i needed to but there still some shit i need to solve.
well thats it for now
im out
gabbie xoxo |
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| Drama follows me like a lost little puppy dog |
[Nov. 16th, 2004|01:24 pm] |
well i had one fucked up weekend which i wont go into detail with but it's leading me to the decision of leaving and going to jersey for a month...i just need to get away from everything for a little bit.
In jersey I'll do homeschooling and probably not leave the house but it will only be for a month and it cant be to bad becuase thats def what i need right now just a month get away. I'm gonna miss my family like hell(the canter family that is) but i can call and then they're coming up to penn. for a little bit and i'll prob go back home with them.
well im out
gabbie xoxo |
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[Oct. 29th, 2004|03:47 pm] |
Wel lets see lately shit sucks but whatever i've been a pretty damn good for the past week...i needed to change some things becuase i started mad fucking up. Ya i dont like this whole being goos stuff but ya gotta do what you gotta do.
I think spiro might be evicted soon....damn i wish this kid would just get it through his head that he needs to restart his life not in a bad way juts like get a job, bank account and just save up for a car and gain some responisablitity..i know shit is hard but if i can get a job i know he can....what the hell is he gonna do when he gets evicted. even my mom was gonna help him out and let him buy my sister's car and make payments monthly but then she found out he didnt have a job.
but i depending on how things go i might be going back to GC after soccer season!i just dont have friends at barron and i get lonely i guess ao ya know. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2004|02:08 am] |
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umm here i tell ya a little summin summin .....i hate fake people and i hate drunk sluts but what can you do....i fed up with everything and everyone and damn if i only had a knife bitches would be dead sucks when evern your best friend is scandouls towards you... and scholl sucks but whatever but hopefully i made soccer
p.s i sorry to the people i yelled at on last friday i dont remeber shit but whatever guys just shouldnt throw around drunk barred our chicks or they should just ask for the ass kicking
ughhhhhh i dont even know how to explain shit anymore and it'spointless to even explain it becuase no one cares |
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| ~ya know what im saying~ quote from gansta friend |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|03:32 pm] |
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| | shit michaels playing | ] |
~I never cared that much I never kept in touch and most of all what really sucks is everything and all of us~
I am so fucking sick of everything....ugh i don't even know how to explain it! Like I'm starting to have no care in the world becuase with everything I have ever done good for myself has got me nowhere and when I do bad I still handle my shit just as well. People just piss the fuck out of me like they start pointless drama and most of the time the drama that it was started over wasn't damn true....but ehh what can you do.
~locked away in a cage today so i'm doin' what i can take these fuckin' chains off me and i'll show you what i am you don't know what its like to be in me you don't know what i've survived and you never would beleive~
Ya so my mom and I still aren't talking well mostly I'm not talking to her becuase it just makes me irratated.....she god damn knows that I'm doing really good in my life for once better then I ever had really....I mean god damn look at my life(not the past) I live at the Canter's I get alone with chris and Sarah my little brother and sister (their so cute), Sarah Loves me she writes shit on me for school and she wrote on her profile how she looks up to me and how I am always thier for her and can give her advice, I play traveling soccer, I am assitant coaching Sarah soccer team for community service(for a scholorship), I have A's and B's in all my classes.....I mean shit I have that All American teenage perfect life (if life were a movie that is, the world is way fucked up thats not even standard American family any more) But yet I'm still on locked down and can't live a life....and I don't want to fuck all this up i have going for me and all I am asking for is a little distance and to have my life experinces becuase i have to learn them myself.
Well I'm Out ~gabbie~
Knife Party
my knife it's sharp and chrome
come see inside my bones
all of the fiends are on the block
I'm the new king
I taste the queen
in here we are all anemic
in here anemic and sweet
so go get your knife
and come in
so go get your knife
and lay down
so go get your knife now kiss me
I can float here forever
in this room we can't touch
the floor in here
we're all anemic
in here anemic and sweet so |
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[Oct. 11th, 2004|04:08 pm] |
ok well i'll share something with somewhat of interst mrs.canter gives me the phone and tells me to listen to this message so im listening and this little girl is crying for her mom then starts screaming fucking bithc pick up the phone i've been raped and starts crying alittle more and all of a sudden her little girl voice turns in to this creepy / dark possed like voice and is liek and sometimes i drink alot and goes on and on about things it was creepy as hell thought i would share
well that all for now
im out gabbie |
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| ~If rhythms were valiums I'd be comfortably numb~ |
[Oct. 8th, 2004|01:38 pm] |
~I heard that payback's a mother fuckin' bitch But I won't stress and I won't switch And I would not take my life~
Well today wasnt so bad went to the doctors and now i have to be evealuated for depression awsome right so then went to school for A luch and then skipped 3rd went to B lunch then went home talk to dom and jersak a little and that was my day!
Still pised at my mom i just wanna slit her thoart but im going to work this so called depression thing to my advanage.....
Now babe the time has come.
How'd ya like to have a little fun?
And she said." If we could only please be on our way, I will not run."
That's when things got out of control.
She didn't want to, he had his way.
She said, "Let's Go"
He said, "No Way!"
Come on babe it's your lucky day.
Shut your mouth, were gonna do it my way.
Come on baby don't be afraid,
if it wasn't for date rape I'd never get laid.
He finished up and he started the car
He turned around and drove back to the bar.
He said."Now baby don't be sad, in my opinion you weren't half-bad."
She picked up a rock.,threw it at the car, hit him in the head ,now his got a big scar.
Come on party people won't you listen to me.
Date Rape Stylee.
The next day she went to her drawer, look up her local attorney at law,
went to the phone and filed the police report and then she took the guy's ass to court.
Well, the day he stood in front of the judge he screamed, " She lies that little slut!"
The judge knew that he was full of shit and he gave him 25 years
And now his hearted is filled with tears.
That night in jail it was getting late.
He was butt-raped by a large inmate, and he screamed.
But the guards paid no attention to his cries.
That's when things got out of control.
The moral of the date rape story, it does not pay to be drunk and horny.
But that's the way it had to be.
They locked him up and threw away the key.
Well, I can't take pity on men of his kind,
even though he now takes it in the behind.
DATE RAPE
She didn't want to TAKE IT! |
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[Sep. 15th, 2004|05:12 pm] |
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| | otep mother fucker | ] |
well ya i saw imran and i missed him alot he gives the best hugs....i love the fact that i can talk to him on anything its nice being open with someone and he really the only person that doesnt judge....him and his girl are so cute together she pretty cool i saw her to when i went over.
well i think im going to go back to Gulf coast after the semester....that is if i can make it till then, im glad i have my couple friends there but i dont know it just doesnt feel right being there, theres somthing about it. maybe becuase i was happier there but that happiness almost got me killed more then once but hey who's counting..
damn i really hate most girls that drive me outta my fucking mind, you and be best friends with them and still get motherfucking dicked over that probably why i dont have that ony girlfriends but then the probably with guys not all but alot of them just wanna get laid but w/e thats something you know already. plus i hate the fact how girls are all worried about shit, i dont lie i worry to but shits gonna happen either way really so you cant stop it...thats the thing i liked about jordan if some guy wanted to take me away or w/e he would always say my lose but i couldnt stop it....with him i was the same way...now i guess im more worried but i still say i cant stop shit and shit gonna happpen.
i wanna go to the mall and get some shit im just really bored i got a trance cd and it kicks ass....but ya that about it im out gabbie |
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| ~My Autopsy~ |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|05:47 pm] |
I feel like A woman
I feel like I care
I feel like I shouldn't
I feel like a child Of despair
I feel like It's over
I feel like it's coming After me
I feel like It's closer
I feel like this is all I'll ever be
I feel like A failure
I feel like a hungry Parasite
I feel like A razor
I feel like a prayer Lost in flight
I feel like I'm hopeless......I'm afraid I'm a slave, I'm weak and average
I feel like A hammer
I feel like A nail
I feel like I'm guilty
I feel like the wrist that it impales
I feel like A butcher
I feel like I'm being decieved
I feel like a beautiful loser
I feel like all you sheep ARE LAUGHING AT ME!!!
Open wide, look inside, at my autopsy
My autopsy
I feel like a complete waste of time
I feel I'm Transparent
I feel like I can't Escape my mind
otep mother fucker
Love ya gabbie |
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